perfect peace

the packing is progressing. a reallygoodfriend came over last night and was a great encouragement to me in this pit that i call a bedroom. i took 3 boxes of stuff to a garage sale today. the clothes that don't sell i will take to plato's closet and what they don't take i will donate. i also went to ikea and target today and got some great deals on kitchen/bath stuff for my appartment. so i gained some stuff as i lost some stuff. oh well. i'm making progress.

i've been thinking a lot about peace lately. it's the theme for my last sunday and i've been searching for a song to sing that deals with moving on and change, but also having peace with it. at first i was trying to write something thinking that would make it super personal and real, but nothing i wrote really was real. i mean, it was me just saying what i think needed to be said, but not how i was really feeling. and i realized i didn't need to say anything about my anxiety or fears because i am already at peace with this transition. yeah it's going to be hard to leave everything, but that's life. and the more i dwell on the negative the more upsetting it is emotionally. but honestly, although right now the leaving is in the forefront of my mind, what i'm going to is something to look forward to. i'm not excessively worried or afraid of it. i'm at peace with it all. and because of this i know that this is for sure where God wants me. and i know that He is totally in this whole transition and is holding my hand every step of the way.

i recently found a song that pretty much said everything i really wanted to say. well, more what i feel God has been saying to me. i would totally post the song because it is soooo pretty, but i can't figure out how to do it on blogger. so you just get lyrics. but if you come to cbc on 8/10 you can hear me sing it :)

stay close by My side
keep your eyes on Me
though this life is hard
I will give you perfect peace

in this time of trial
pain that no one sees
trust Me when I say
that I will give you perfect peace

and you'll never walk alone
and you'll never be in need
though I may not calm the storms around you
you can hide in Me

burdens that you bear
offer no relief
let Me bear your load
cause I will give you perfect peace

stay close by My side
and you'll never walk alone
keep your eyes on Me
and you'll never be in need
though this life is hard
know that I will always give you perfect peace
I will give you perfect peace