so i have this worship recital coming up in a little over a week. i was planning to sing "before the throne" and then through a variety of events my teacher found out i write music and had me do a song for him. i guess he really liked it because he told me i was doing it at the recital instead of my other song. he didn't ask me if i wanted to...just told me.
i've struggled in the past with staying humble with my gifts. it's easy to get big-headed and think you're all that and lately i've been trying to avoid placing myself in situations where that might become a temptation for me (not trying out for solos for things, not playing/singing for other people outside class, etc.) so i didn't really feel very good about doing my song at the recital. i partly felt like that would be crossing the line i had set for myself...but also just felt weird about it.
i mentioned this to dr. jupin and he asked if i'd prayed about it. i said not really but it was just a gut feeling. he told me to pray about it and then talk to him. so i thought about it more and prayed about it some and this is what came to my mind:
"You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven."
Matthew 5: 14-16
music is my light. God didn't gift me in this way for me...but for Him. so that He could use my gifts to be glorified. my gifts don't do any good when i limit them to the practice room. this doesn't mean i need to flaunt them and have a cocky attitude about them, but i should be sharing them with others so that God can work through them in the lives of others.
so i'm gonna do the song.
and pray that it is an encouragement to someone listening.
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you could not have written a more beautiful post.
for years i have prayed that God would teach you true humility when it comes to your (His) voice.
love you so much. He is so good.
p.s. i never meant to infer that i ever thought you were prideful about your voice. i have never seen that. i just really never wanted that to happen.
p.s.s. breakfast at coney this morning for six. i missed you.
Great, who is taking the video for us?
Emma, what a lovely post! I'm so glad your prof encouraged you to pray about it. And the conclusion God led you to is so *good*. When is the recital exactly? What day? I hope you're going to sing at church while you are home for t'giving!! I love praising God along with your voice.
not sure i'll be singing at tgiving...but i'm sure aaron has something up his sleave for christmas. we'll see haha!
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