sigh.

sometimes i want to run away.

to just disappear and leave all the bad things behind.

and go to a tropical island and be pampered and have a sunburnt nose instead of frostbitten toes.

i would lie on the beach sipping my strawberry lemonade and let the waves wash my troubles away.

and i would feel better.

but unfortunately that's not how life works.

instead i'm stuck here in the frozen north where my toes are always cold and the sun is hidden behind the snow clouds before it sets at 5pm.

i feel trapped. like i'm going no where fast.

and yet, as much as it sucks, i know this is where i'm supposed to be.

i have plenty to be thankful for. i really have no reason to complain because i have been v.e.r.y blessed.

i just needed to get that off my chest.