musings

so over this election thing.

i remember 4 years ago i was in my first semester at arguably the nations most conservative-for-it's-size school. they gave us the day off classes to go vote and had john mccain's brother speak in convo the week before. i remember trying to maintain my disconnect and apathy toward engaging in all the "excitement", but i had become best friends with a pre-law major-turned worship major who enjoyed debating as a pastime. still not sure how that happened. anyway. it was hard to ignore.

my release show is this weekend! everything is slowly falling into place. and by this time next week, the record will be available on itunes! i can't believe this is really happening! it's been a vision in my head for a year now - evolving and growing and changing - and it is surreal to see it unfolding before my eyes. it's one of those things that i always deep down wanted to do but thought that admitting it would make me seem proud and arrogant. which it would be if i were doing it for me. interesting how God works.

i'm reading through the major prophets. just cause i never have (aside from isaiah). i just finished jeremiah and lamentations. talk about a mood killer. a few take aways:
- at the end of jeremiah, it recounts the historical record of the exile of Judah from the official records. every.single.thing God said would happen, just the way jeremiah prophesied it would. not that this should be surprising, but it is in my mind noteworthy :)
- God gave the people of Judah so.many.chances to turn things around. over and over and over they were warned. they were told what their punishment would be. and they did not listen.
- God cut off Judah because there was so much evil. similarly, God destroyed the world with a flood because there was so much evil. makes me give thanks for grace in the world that i live in :/
- in two books that are 95% depressing, there are a few small glimmers of hope. they are moments in which jeremiah speaks TRUTH about the sovereignty of God. and somehow, that little 5% of hope - an eternal perspective - makes all the nasty seem a little less terrible.

on to ezekial. such a cool name :)